I miss This

From the day Cailin was born, until she was at least 16-17 months old, I rocked her to sleep every single night. Sure there was that occasional night that we were out late and she fell asleep in the car, but most of the time, we would rock to sleep. Cailin isn’t feeling well and was uber fussy today. I know she didn’t sleep well, I could hear her coughing quite a bit throughout the night. Shortly after she picked and barely took 3 bites of her lunch, she sits on my lap on the floor crying and I started to rock her. She calmed down, and becomes very quiet. Chris tells me that her eyes were starting to drift shut. I move into her room and we rock for a while longer. She was asleep within five minutes. I continued to rock her, letting those little drool droplets roll down my arm, but enjoying this moment that we used to share every single night. When it was bed time, Cailin asked if we could rock again. YOU BET!! She didn’t fall asleep this time, but we rocked for about 20 minutes before I put her into her bed. I sang to her, she sang with me once in a while. After I realized she wasn’t going to sleep on my lap, we moved to her bed. She wanted me to put my head on the pillow next to her. I did, and I got to watch my baby fall asleep again. I miss getting to hold her and rock every night. I did notice at lunch time where she used to fit on my lap between the arms of the chair, now her legs dangle down the side. She has gotten so tall and growing up so fast. I can’t believe she is going to be 2 soon!!